I'm like connect the dots lady. Dad's children... i have them in contact with each other. This is good i think. *chuckle* YAY! What will come of this i don't know, but i think it needed to be done. I think. Maybe. I hope i haven't started a war

Thankyou Mandy

Withought a soundboard, there isn't a way out
Too much Thinking
Way too much Pointless Envy, Anger, Fear, Dispair
But More than a touch of Regret

I've finally done it!
I bought my ticket to Brisbane. I've been trying to find one and YAY for sales!
In other news, i've got oil on my best top. Bloody massaging.
-maybe its honey?

only 244 days to go!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!
Its to New Zealand for a week then Canada here i come!

He'll be here in 2 days! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
This is insaine!

He'll be here in three weeks.
Shit.
Shit
shit
And the massages i have been giving are getting more and more (tht doesn't really make much sence... but.. SHHH)

He is coming back.
L misses me so much he can't wait for me to get to Canada he is coming back here. Again. For me and only me. I didn't think i was worth him coming here the first time after meeting and spending only 10 days together. But he's been in his home in Canada for almost a year now. We've been apart for almost a year. Yet he is coming back because he misses me. I didn't realise i was worth that much to someone.

I was not going to do an entry to do with 2007 and its... stuff. But i thought about it again...
See, apart from all the seizures, the fact that L. went back to Canada, the loneliness, there was - obviously Craig. Then I thought ok, thats enough.
I found out a few days ago a woman, the woman who introduced L and I on New years Eve, Eve 2005-2006. She died of cancer on new years eve 2007. Happy Fucking New Year. It feels like she didn't want to scar 2008 with her pain...
"Two thousand and eight is goinna be great"
*shrug*

Is it wrong to make someone feel REALLY REALLY REALLY guilty. Not tell them u know something, that they know u shouldn't know... but... draw it out... bleed it... then RING THEIR FUCKING HEADS OFF!... *cough cough*
right... but would it, in the end, make me feel better?




YES. YES IT WILL.

I miss running about being all stupid.
I want to run about having fun. *pout*
I WANT SOMETHING FUN AND EXCITING TO HAPPEN!

ENTERTAIN ME!?!?!?

http://www.xkcd.com/#
(i haven't a clue how to make it link with words)

And i just found out i left the front door open. All day. With no one there.
I'm in the shitta.

yes, see, i love my profession. I DO. but i haven't had to do this many massages in one day for a long time. And they were all... *pulls haie out* GAH!
And for some reson... THERE IS ALL THE BLOODY FLIES EVERYWHERE!!!

This last ten minutes has gone SO SLOWLY.
ALL THE BLOODY FLIES!!!

In other news...
i think
http://www.penny-arcade.com/comic/1999/04/16
is VERY funnie
I mightn't get some of the stupid gaming jokes, but otherwise... *chuckle* rather humorous!
But i have only just begun!

A year ago i lived with this crazy lady, she lives in brisbane, and i wrote about her. *shakes head* she starts hinting at being anoyed that i didn't come see her while i was in brisbane. Even after i told her why.
I asked her if she was high.
she said "high on life!! and Exams!!!" I replied, as i would with a "rrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggghhhhhhhhhhtttttttt"
this is what i got back...
"maha if you had said something like i said you would consider it funny and expect everyone else to. if you don't wish to be civil, don't bother communicating with me. i do not need you demeaning me. not now and not ever. so make a choice. be nice or be gone"

just a touch melodramatic one might say. *chuckle* silly little girl (she's 33)

Supposedly I am meant to burn a photo with a candle.
Supposedly it will work.
*shrug* But to burn a photo? I don't know if i can do that.

And i dreamed that Wane shot himself in the head.
Someone keep an eye on him.

I'm going to tell you a story...

I made myself a cup of tea...
Brewed it from a pot and leaves and everything... practically PICKED the leaves...
Anyway... I poured it... just about to drink it when my mother looks at me and does "those eyes" - you know the ones... that say "I am your poor dear mother..."

I then had to make myself another cup of tea... -do u see where this is going?
I then went through the whole rigmarole again.

I then had to make myself another cup of tea... kettle, picking the leaves… milk… plunger… etc…
Just about to push the plunger down and everything when one of the clients -after I STUPIDLY asked, said that “Yes,” they "would love a cup of tea Maha"
I sighed.
The client looks at me and says, “If I have a cup of tea, does that mean you have to make yourself another one?” Inside I am thinking “no, no, no, no, no I just want to drink my tea…”
“I said yes.
He said ok. And I thought I was out of the woods!!
There was a pause. “Peppermint then?”

I made it and I hope that he bloody well drinks all of it coz I don’t want to waste good tea!!!

I wish i could remember how to do the links.
Anyone...?