I wanted to have a big rant. This is one of the places I associate with Craig and people who knew him. My friends here did know him and commenting anything on FB is... well it kinda feels meaningless. But I just thought I would write here about him. You guys understood/understand and knew/know what I mean - hope :P
Four years is a while. But you can't just forget a friend like that. I still want to know why he did what he did. I don't understand it. I don't really understand gah. I don't know. Just, if any of my friends read this and have any answers or know anything or... gah. I don't know. Not being around people who knew Craig isn't helpful. Together you can talk about reasons and ask questions together and work out theories. I have my diary to bounce ideas off, but it just gives me a blank look most of the time lately.
Gah.
Never mind.
But let it be known, that I am thinking about you Craig. I don't really believe you are looking at your old friend's LJ where ever you are. I don't know where you went, if you even went anywhere at all. I hope what you wanted to happen, happened (as long as it was good).
*sigh*
I don't know.
I am sure I will be back again.

I'm like connect the dots lady. Dad's children... i have them in contact with each other. This is good i think. *chuckle* YAY! What will come of this i don't know, but i think it needed to be done. I think. Maybe. I hope i haven't started a war

Thankyou Mandy

Withought a soundboard, there isn't a way out
Too much Thinking
Way too much Pointless Envy, Anger, Fear, Dispair
But More than a touch of Regret

I've finally done it!
I bought my ticket to Brisbane. I've been trying to find one and YAY for sales!
In other news, i've got oil on my best top. Bloody massaging.
-maybe its honey?

only 244 days to go!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!
Its to New Zealand for a week then Canada here i come!

He'll be here in 2 days! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
This is insaine!

He'll be here in three weeks.
Shit.
Shit
shit
And the massages i have been giving are getting more and more (tht doesn't really make much sence... but.. SHHH)

He is coming back.
L misses me so much he can't wait for me to get to Canada he is coming back here. Again. For me and only me. I didn't think i was worth him coming here the first time after meeting and spending only 10 days together. But he's been in his home in Canada for almost a year now. We've been apart for almost a year. Yet he is coming back because he misses me. I didn't realise i was worth that much to someone.

I was not going to do an entry to do with 2007 and its... stuff. But i thought about it again...
See, apart from all the seizures, the fact that L. went back to Canada, the loneliness, there was - obviously Craig. Then I thought ok, thats enough.
I found out a few days ago a woman, the woman who introduced L and I on New years Eve, Eve 2005-2006. She died of cancer on new years eve 2007. Happy Fucking New Year. It feels like she didn't want to scar 2008 with her pain...
"Two thousand and eight is goinna be great"
*shrug*